VET

So, today was not a normal day at all. I got up and got all dressed....I tried to get Barrett dressed early because I knew he probably didn't wanna go anywhere today because usually Friday's we stay home. Sure enough...he screamed and screamed and it took me what seems hours to hold him down and get him all dressed!

Today was the day that I met Love's new Mom for the first time at the Vet's office! I really didn't like the vet but as in a person towards me because he was always yelling at me to not let Barrett do anything so I ended up having to hold a kicking screaming kid the whole time.

At first, I was stunned. Love is a totally different dog. No more hyperness and soo gentle. I'm so proud of her...it just goes to say that I wasn't a good mommy at all, only because I couldn't be. If I had time with her she would settle down more like she was today.

The vet gave her some antibiotics for her skin condition that she's had...it's safe to say tho the hair is finally coming back after her having hot spots. Love is a breed of dog that has to have a TON of attention and a lot of room to play and I had the room to play but no time for attention. I will miss her but I already know that she is in a better home and will have a lot of ppl who love her!

Love is also telling them when she needs to go potty already, which she did that for me I was just never over here to let her out! And another shocking thing is the lady's son will be working at uno's with me starting tomorrow! What a quinkydink!

All in all, who Love is now with is a great family and I couldn't be happier for that. But, it still does not excuse what my sister did. I am also aloud to visit her anytime I want. The lady was sooo kind to me, and her son, 25 will meet me soon so my visitation won't be so strange maybe.

After all this, we went to eat at TGI Fridays and then went for a nap! We both took a 3 1/2 hour nap and it was AMAZING!!! Then we came home and ate dinner and took a bath...then watched a tiny bit of TV and it was time for him to go to bed. I was only babysitting tonight for a lil extra cash. I usually work at the restaurant on Fridays but was scheduled off!

Now I am headed into town to go to Douglas' for the weekend as soon as I can get packed. I have missed him today. I can't wait to see his beautiful smile tell me he loves me! Gawsh that's so mushy gooshy, but I only write what I feel in here so that's it. Anyways have a great weekend!!!

-T-

Gotta get another job!

Well, today started out just normal. While Barrett ate lunch today I seemed to be in one of those "cleaning moods" that we all get. When I get extremely stressed out or upset that's what I tend to do, scrub the shit out of things haha. Well, so I clean the entire downstairs of my sister's side of the house, including the basement. Then I felt a little better. &*& well, tomorrow after working with Barrett is my side of the house's turn, plus laundry. My sister did not know I was off from Unos tomorrow night so she had already hired a babysitter! Which is GREAT for me! I'll just go on about my business while Sophie takes over.

Anyways, after watching Barrett my sister had planned for us to have a family discussion. So they decided to take me out to eat. The deal is my sister &*& brother-in-law both cannot get home in time for me to get to work at Unos anymore because my sister's job is getting so stressful that she has to stay at school till 5:00 now. The last shift at unos starts at 4:30. So, they found out that a lady in our neighborhood has a daycare out of her home and have room for Barrett. But, the contract is only for 8 hrs a day so it's still not near long enough for them, considering Brandy leaves at 6:00 AM.

So, after February 16th or so I will watch Barrett from 5:30 - 9:30, getting paid only 50 bucks a week to do so. &*& after 9:30 I will drop him off at day care. 50 dollars a week is not enough to pay my bills, but I will have time for a 3rd job. My sister, however, wants me to get a job at one of the higher end restaurants that close during the cold season. She also wants me to quit unos...but I am not going to do that. I like what I have done for Unos...I am one of the top servers there. Well, see about working at the higher end restaurant. But I would much rather prefer somewhere that will offer me a job all year round. Also, incase I do decide to move somewhere else up here or back to Texas I could always transfer to the same restaurant. I was thinking about Fridays because I already know half the people that work there and I like them. We will see tho!

After our meeting, I went to Douglas'. We had set his roomate/best friend up on a blind date. She was coming to the apt and we cooked and drank the night away! It was fantastic...and I've never been more in love with my Douglas than I was tonight!!! I enjoyed myself! As for now I think it's time to shut my eyes!

Blah

Today was a pretty rough day again. It just started out yucky. The kid woke up at 6 when his parents left. We ate breakfast and Barrett devoured like 6 bowls of cheerios!! He's such a BIG eater! We then went downstairs to become hermits because the snowy weather kept us indoors. He took his nap early at around 10:30! Thank goodness for his nap finally! He slept for 3 1/2 hrs today! I needed that very much.

I hopped in the shower right after he fell asleep and then after that I took a 2 hr nap, woke up and got ready for work. Then when he wakes up we start to get dressed because idk if we are meeting his mommy in town or what!

Well, turns out she didn't want us going anywhere so we stayed her and finally ate lunch. We both had pizza, crackers and some sliced cheese. Then I waited for brother-in-law to make home and then he finally did...

Got to work, I am definitely a closer when I walk in the door...but close to the end of my shift Dougas and I Get in a big arguement...I won't get into that because it's in the past now but I am still upset at what all happened!

Anyways, today was kinda bland...I am falling asleep so I'm going to call it quits!

G*nite,
-T-

EXHAUSTED!

Well...today was a very exhausting day. But a lot better than the last few. I couldn't sleep a wink last night. I don't know if it's because I didn't have Douglas beside me or if it was the absence of Love. I really miss how she used to curl up in a ball next to me under the covers. But, I really didn't fall asleep until after 4 AM this morning. &*& Barrett woke me up at his usual 6:00 AM!

Well, I then thought to myself oh he'll take his 3 hour nap and I can get a good 2 hr nap in too until I need to get ready for work. HAHAHA NOTT!!!! The turd did not even blink. Not only did he not take a nap....he was off the walls all day long. A complete handful. I didn't get a nap in...and had to go work the second job knowing I would be closing with 2 hours of sleep!

Tonight was especially slow...&*& to top it off the two other servers I worked with are my worst enemies really...oh well, I made it through. The girl who is supposed to close with me left me ALL alone to do EVERYTHING. But, I finally got done at 11:30. And I prolly had about 6 tables, if that, all night! I still managed to make 60 bucks tho...so it turned out alright.

Then I went to Douglas' house and had coffee and a snack. I never go home without spending about an hour with him after work. He makes me so happy. This man truly is my world. Everytime he smiles my head just spins! I love having him there while I am at work. Because a table can be the rudest ppl I have ever met and I want to shoot myself but when I look through that window at his smile and him mouthing I love you everything melts away! I love Douglas with everything that is in me.

Oh, and on another note. I found out some REALLY great news on Thursday night before all this mad house happened. My mom recently had gone to doctor for a mamogram. Well, it came back abnormal...which could mean anything?! My mother and I haven't really had a relationship at all until recently...and the thought of breast cancer made me shutter. Well, when I called to tell her about my extremely burnt finger she told me her news. The abnormalties were just cists and she's going to be just fine. But definitely needs to keep up with her yearly checkups and exams just to be safe! Thank God! ( :

Sorry, that I got a little mushy gooshy...that's just how I feel tonight. Mooshy gooshy! hehe! Alright it's time to hit the hay...afterall, I am extremely exhausted!


ZzZzZzZz...
-T-

Getting a little better.

Well, today was actually a late morning. Barrett decided to sleep in until 7:30 this morning when he is usually up at his normal 5:30! We get up...eat breakfast, get a bath and go play, do numbers, and letters and such. Then we eat lunch and lay down for a nap (well he does that is.)

In the mean time of him falling asleep I see my sister has left the number for Love's new owner on the fridge. I pick my phone up shakily and dial the number. Turns out she really does love my dog. &*& we made plans of getting her paper work faxed and the rest of her things to her and such. Then she made the vet apt I wanted to make without me....I'm not sure I really have the money for all the stuff they have to do to her because it's been since I lived in Corpus like 8 months ago that she's actually been to the vet. But, I am going to talk to my sister and see if she can get my money to me early...it's due on the 1st anyways which is a Sunday...hopefully she can do that for me.

Well, I've been lonely the last few nights in bed. &*& it was great to know that Love won't be a bed dog for them because she is not big enough to jump on their bed and she's actually sleeping in her own bed. WHO would have known to cover her up with a blanket and she'd be fine?!?! lol...I think I am starting to get used to it but it's still very hard to let go.

Well, my phone decided to die at about 3 today, and my sister and I hadn't made plans of how we were exchanging the baby...I didn't know if Matthew was coming home or I was supposed to meet my sister at Uno's or what?! Well, I left charger at Douglas' of coarse so I went out to my car to charge my phone at about 4 so I could give my sister a call...turns out I was supposed to meet her in town at the gym like 30 min ago...she said she'd called ALL day. NOT! my phone wasn't dead till 3!

Anyways, I told her that we needed to discuss a plan ahead of time...like written down on the calendar on the fridge (which was bought just for that!) Well, aparently my sister had backed into someone in Uno's parking lot but she said nothing to me about it when I got there. Just took the baby and headed home...but my manager saw the whole thing and thought it was hilarious! Work, was pretty slow and I managed to pull 50 bucks out of tonight even tho I only had 6 tables tops!

Now, it's time for bed...a lonely one but a bed none the less!

Tchao!
-T-

Shocked!

So, Sundays are always ALWAYS mine and Douglas' day of rest considering we only get that day off from both of our busy lives. So we slept till 1:00, I got up showered and put a face on. Then we went to stop & shop to go grocery shopping for the apartment. That took us like 2 hrs considering all the stuff that we bought.

While grocery shopping and I hear my phone ring and I know it's my sister. Finally, I have to face up to her. But, I still say nothing! She tells me how much the family loooved my dog and that they would like to keep her. I am both happy and very depressed about this. I love my dog and only want what's best for her but I don't think I was ready just yet!

I had told my sister I wanted to get her to the vet and checked out before I just gave her to someone because it's been a LONG while. Well, it was like 2 days later she told me about this lady. Oh well, in other words my dog is at someone else's house for good now...and it was basically like I never got to say goodbye. Maybe it's better that way.

I still plan to take her to the vet and the new "mom" of Love will be meeting Barrett &*& I at her veternarians office soon. &*& then I will be able to tell her goodbye. I really loved that lil dog...I miss her soooo much. I miss our cuddle time, and play time. I even miss the part I used to dread and that was clipping her nails. She's such a loving lil bundle and I am gonna miss that. But, maybe, I'll be able to have time for another dog in the future.

After the groceries, however, we got home and put everything away and then Douglas started on a laaaate lunch. We ate and then went over to his friends' apt for the every sunday party! We have steak, sausage, beer and liquor. Everything seemed to be okay, until we got home and Douglas and I had a big fight. I haaate fighting...especially with the one I love. But, I think everything is okay. We kinda just left it open and are now going to bed.

callin it a night!
-T-

Another Sad Day

This one is short I promise. Well, at least I started out the day in someone's arms who had a great big smile on his face! But unfortunately that's not how my day went. He went on to work and I was basically a Veggie at his house because I didn't really want to confront my sister yet. I called her and texted her all day long and never got a response with any kind of phone number.

Once getting to Uno's for work I put it behind me. &*& Well, MADE SOME KICK ASS MONEY! I made 120 bucks! So that made things seem a lil better. Then I just went home with Douglas and watched a movie and went to bed. Wasn't a very eventful day at all. Just a lil depressing if you ask me. Hopefully these posts get better soon.