This one is short I promise. Well, at least I started out the day in someone's arms who had a great big smile on his face! But unfortunately that's not how my day went. He went on to work and I was basically a Veggie at his house because I didn't really want to confront my sister yet. I called her and texted her all day long and never got a response with any kind of phone number.
Once getting to Uno's for work I put it behind me. &*& Well, MADE SOME KICK ASS MONEY! I made 120 bucks! So that made things seem a lil better. Then I just went home with Douglas and watched a movie and went to bed. Wasn't a very eventful day at all. Just a lil depressing if you ask me. Hopefully these posts get better soon.
Saturday, January 24, 2009
Friday, January 23, 2009
Today was RUFF!
Well, today again starts out like normal...except my brother-in-law is back from his trip with military. So he's home all day and I some how still have to watch the kid. I took care of him and while he took a nap I got love all groomed up and ready for her night stay with the woman that wants to "test drive." Well, that day turned into more a whole weekend thing.
That lil change isn't what made my day "ruff" tho...listen to this. My sister told me that she was meeting her "lady friend" ( i don't even know her name) at a bar between 4:00 and 4:30 and I get there at like 4:15. I call her and tell her I'm there. She said the lady wasn't there yet and I wouldn't be able to meet her. Well, tears start to whelp up and my sister was like, "what's wrong?! You'll get to meet her if she wants to keep her!" &* & I gulped and swallowed hard then said, "ok."
I am stupid...I not only gave my dog to a complete stranger thinking I can trust her through my sister! But I don't EVEN HAVE A PHONE NUMBER just in case! It's like if I had handed over my sisters son to someone else for a weekend and her having not met her or had any numbers. I not only don't have numbers but really haven't seen, spoken to, or heard this woman at all! It's so frustrating. I love my dog soooo much!
How could I let this happen to her?! Now, I am so worried. I went to work almost being late having bawled my eyes out right before. So I calmed down &*& went in. Well, I had forgotten that I had left my apron at Uno's Wednesday night. Well, I get there and my apron is there COMPLETELY empty. It had my chapstick, about 10 pens, lip gloss and EVEN tampons...now why the HELL would someone still all of that! It just made the moment even worse for me.
I've never broke down at work before because of something outside of work...I usually leave it at the door. But, the fact was I was so upset at what my sister did that I could not hold it back. One of the girls at work gave me three pens and I was greatful for her in that moment. &*& I told her my story and she gave me a big hug...&*& again I love her for that as well. So I took a deep breath and took the server floor not wanting to wait for Douglas to come in that front door.
So...that's how my night went. Hopefully after Douglas gets home from work a lil shortly after I just did now things will look up and I'll let you know about that tomorrow. As for now I'm gonna leave you with this!
-T
That lil change isn't what made my day "ruff" tho...listen to this. My sister told me that she was meeting her "lady friend" ( i don't even know her name) at a bar between 4:00 and 4:30 and I get there at like 4:15. I call her and tell her I'm there. She said the lady wasn't there yet and I wouldn't be able to meet her. Well, tears start to whelp up and my sister was like, "what's wrong?! You'll get to meet her if she wants to keep her!" &* & I gulped and swallowed hard then said, "ok."
I am stupid...I not only gave my dog to a complete stranger thinking I can trust her through my sister! But I don't EVEN HAVE A PHONE NUMBER just in case! It's like if I had handed over my sisters son to someone else for a weekend and her having not met her or had any numbers. I not only don't have numbers but really haven't seen, spoken to, or heard this woman at all! It's so frustrating. I love my dog soooo much!
How could I let this happen to her?! Now, I am so worried. I went to work almost being late having bawled my eyes out right before. So I calmed down &*& went in. Well, I had forgotten that I had left my apron at Uno's Wednesday night. Well, I get there and my apron is there COMPLETELY empty. It had my chapstick, about 10 pens, lip gloss and EVEN tampons...now why the HELL would someone still all of that! It just made the moment even worse for me.
I've never broke down at work before because of something outside of work...I usually leave it at the door. But, the fact was I was so upset at what my sister did that I could not hold it back. One of the girls at work gave me three pens and I was greatful for her in that moment. &*& I told her my story and she gave me a big hug...&*& again I love her for that as well. So I took a deep breath and took the server floor not wanting to wait for Douglas to come in that front door.
So...that's how my night went. Hopefully after Douglas gets home from work a lil shortly after I just did now things will look up and I'll let you know about that tomorrow. As for now I'm gonna leave you with this!
-T
Thursday, January 22, 2009
Burnt Finger
Well, today started out just like any day. But, I LOVE Thursdays considering Douglas and I both have Thursday night off. Well, my sister had to stay later to get grades in. &*& Matthew was flying in from being away with military so I had to get the house extra tidy and clean for him.
Well, Barrett takes an unusually long 3 1/2 - 4 hr nap today! Which was ABSOLUTELY amazing! I had time to even clean my car out, which was pretty discusting if you ask me! I never thought I'd see the day that my car would actually look like that, but I also didn't think I'd have a 2-year-old going everywhere with me for quite some time.
Anyways, I got a lot done I needed done but still didn't get it all done. I still have a mound of laundry to do. Well, this week is kinda sad for me. I might be soon saying goodbye to my dog. Love is now a year old, as of the first, and I am very attached to her. However, I know that I really don't have the time to give her. I work all the time and I am never home. &*& that's just not fair to her. I love her to death though. A woman from where my sister works is going to "test drive" her tomorrow night.
Tomorrow I am either going to do it myself or take her to petco to get her all groomed up. It really makes me sad. I love sleeping with her because she LOVES to cuddle but I guess I do have Douglas for that now. I'm pretty beat up about this and it does make me cry. I am really gonna miss her! She was there for me when no one else was. Oh well, on to the title now huh? Well, after Barrett awoke from his nap he was already hungry for dinner so I started grilled cheeses. He screamed about something so I turned around and did not pay attention to my left hand.
It had been holding the handle on the frying pan. Well, there is a piece between the handle and the actual pan itself that is about an inch thick and metal. Well, I had accidently grabbed that piece! &*& not only was it hot but my Brain wouldn't tell my hand to let go. Now my entire left index finger has a huge blister on it. OUCH!
I am just so tired of all the lil bad things happening to me lately. I really feel like a clutz but I also know that I really am not that big of a clutz. Oh well, I better get my butt in bed as I am dozing off writing this now. CHOW!
-T-
Well, Barrett takes an unusually long 3 1/2 - 4 hr nap today! Which was ABSOLUTELY amazing! I had time to even clean my car out, which was pretty discusting if you ask me! I never thought I'd see the day that my car would actually look like that, but I also didn't think I'd have a 2-year-old going everywhere with me for quite some time.
Anyways, I got a lot done I needed done but still didn't get it all done. I still have a mound of laundry to do. Well, this week is kinda sad for me. I might be soon saying goodbye to my dog. Love is now a year old, as of the first, and I am very attached to her. However, I know that I really don't have the time to give her. I work all the time and I am never home. &*& that's just not fair to her. I love her to death though. A woman from where my sister works is going to "test drive" her tomorrow night.
Tomorrow I am either going to do it myself or take her to petco to get her all groomed up. It really makes me sad. I love sleeping with her because she LOVES to cuddle but I guess I do have Douglas for that now. I'm pretty beat up about this and it does make me cry. I am really gonna miss her! She was there for me when no one else was. Oh well, on to the title now huh? Well, after Barrett awoke from his nap he was already hungry for dinner so I started grilled cheeses. He screamed about something so I turned around and did not pay attention to my left hand.
It had been holding the handle on the frying pan. Well, there is a piece between the handle and the actual pan itself that is about an inch thick and metal. Well, I had accidently grabbed that piece! &*& not only was it hot but my Brain wouldn't tell my hand to let go. Now my entire left index finger has a huge blister on it. OUCH!
I am just so tired of all the lil bad things happening to me lately. I really feel like a clutz but I also know that I really am not that big of a clutz. Oh well, I better get my butt in bed as I am dozing off writing this now. CHOW!
-T-
Wednesday, January 21, 2009
Just Another Day
Well, today started off normal again. I am still sick but I am slowly recovering. The thing about my scalp almost completely disappeared today so I am no longer worried about that. Barrett decided to be a total handful today. He was a lil crankier than normal and only took a 1 hour nap compared to his normal 3 hour naps! I really didn't get ANYthing I needed to get done today what so ever. But, how can ya with a 2-year-old. Sometimes it really drives me nutts to watch this kid as much as I do every week. Don't get me wrong I love him, but really I hadn't spent much time with him until he was 2 and that is a really tuff age! &*& I feel as if I spend way more time with him than his own mother and I hate when I hear him call me "mama!" He still cannot say my name after 4 months and it's kinda sad. We're trying tho. Today was a very awkward day for me all in all, tho. Not to worry, I will still be his nanny until around July.
Well, I get to the second job, you know the one at the restaurant, and I find out I am not closing. Which is DEVISTATING considering I know it's going to be slow and I know I need all the time I can get and all the tables I can get. &*& what's strange is for the past 2 1/2 months I have CLOSED every SINGLE night I have worked for that restaurant. Which was fine with me because my Douglas has to close anyway too. But, it gave me time to eat, shower, and relax before Douglas got home. I made about 40 bucks...which is really good when I had the amount of tables that I had.
Well, I am sorry tonight's post was kinda boring. I think I had a bit of writer's block to be honest. Nothing that "great" happened today so I really don't know what to write about when that happens. Have a good one!
-T-
Well, I get to the second job, you know the one at the restaurant, and I find out I am not closing. Which is DEVISTATING considering I know it's going to be slow and I know I need all the time I can get and all the tables I can get. &*& what's strange is for the past 2 1/2 months I have CLOSED every SINGLE night I have worked for that restaurant. Which was fine with me because my Douglas has to close anyway too. But, it gave me time to eat, shower, and relax before Douglas got home. I made about 40 bucks...which is really good when I had the amount of tables that I had.
Well, I am sorry tonight's post was kinda boring. I think I had a bit of writer's block to be honest. Nothing that "great" happened today so I really don't know what to write about when that happens. Have a good one!
-T-
Tuesday, January 20, 2009
Go Away Snow!
Well hey again,
Today started out like most days of my week! Early at about 5:30 Barrett woke up so I jumped up got him his juice and we headed downstairs to the basement. We lay down and watch a movie. Then we get up, eat breakfast brush our teeth and then we go over either letters or numbers. &*& Maybe even count our toes. Most days we will go somewhere during this time...like the children's museum or something along the lines...But, here lately I have not felt like going ANYWHERE!
I've had a cold for going on 2 weeks now. My trip to Boston this Saturday totally didn't make things better but I wanted to make the BEST of my birthday and DEAL with it! Well, Sunday I wake up with one of those "smoker's" coughs. &*& I'm NOT a smoker. &*& by then I knew this cold was settling itself down in my chest...so now I am coughing quite a bit and it's getting really hard to talk to my tables at the restaurant without needing to cough.
The bad thing is, I do NOT have insurance yet or I would have definitely gone and got a HUGE shot! I just hope and pray that it goes away soon...I also have this really hard to explain thing going on as well. My neck hurts...and is all tight. Well, because it's all tight on the left side of my neck the left side of my scalp and head is all tight and hurts as well. It's hard to understand I know?!? Cus I don't even understand it. I just hope that's from working to hard or sleeping wrong...but this is the 3rd day of it doing so.
Anyways I'll get off this subject...I'm just worried and basically SICK of BEING SICK! But onto the SNOW! I move here and every NORMAL Cape Codder tells me oh it only snows thick here like 3 times during the winter. I must have brought bad luck to Cape Cod or something! It has snowed thick just about EVERY week this winter. The snow just starts to go away and more piles right on! Douglas even said so today that he didn't understand it...why it's snowing so much. Anyways...it's extremely hard and dangerous to drive in...and sometimes I have to drive in it after midnight because of work...and that's even more dangerous.
I'm just tired of snow. At first it was pretty but now it's just trecherous! I dread going outside when there is even a lil snow on the ground! Haha, maybe that's just because I am so clumsy! Speaking of, last monday I had Barrett in my arms walking on the pavement and lost my balance!!! I fell, but protected him completely, and broke my tailbone for the third time. And let me tell you, it STILL HURTS! haha...oh well...the snow will pass eventually.
Well, It is DEFINITELY time for bed!
Goodnight folks,
-T-
Today started out like most days of my week! Early at about 5:30 Barrett woke up so I jumped up got him his juice and we headed downstairs to the basement. We lay down and watch a movie. Then we get up, eat breakfast brush our teeth and then we go over either letters or numbers. &*& Maybe even count our toes. Most days we will go somewhere during this time...like the children's museum or something along the lines...But, here lately I have not felt like going ANYWHERE!
I've had a cold for going on 2 weeks now. My trip to Boston this Saturday totally didn't make things better but I wanted to make the BEST of my birthday and DEAL with it! Well, Sunday I wake up with one of those "smoker's" coughs. &*& I'm NOT a smoker. &*& by then I knew this cold was settling itself down in my chest...so now I am coughing quite a bit and it's getting really hard to talk to my tables at the restaurant without needing to cough.
The bad thing is, I do NOT have insurance yet or I would have definitely gone and got a HUGE shot! I just hope and pray that it goes away soon...I also have this really hard to explain thing going on as well. My neck hurts...and is all tight. Well, because it's all tight on the left side of my neck the left side of my scalp and head is all tight and hurts as well. It's hard to understand I know?!? Cus I don't even understand it. I just hope that's from working to hard or sleeping wrong...but this is the 3rd day of it doing so.
Anyways I'll get off this subject...I'm just worried and basically SICK of BEING SICK! But onto the SNOW! I move here and every NORMAL Cape Codder tells me oh it only snows thick here like 3 times during the winter. I must have brought bad luck to Cape Cod or something! It has snowed thick just about EVERY week this winter. The snow just starts to go away and more piles right on! Douglas even said so today that he didn't understand it...why it's snowing so much. Anyways...it's extremely hard and dangerous to drive in...and sometimes I have to drive in it after midnight because of work...and that's even more dangerous.
I'm just tired of snow. At first it was pretty but now it's just trecherous! I dread going outside when there is even a lil snow on the ground! Haha, maybe that's just because I am so clumsy! Speaking of, last monday I had Barrett in my arms walking on the pavement and lost my balance!!! I fell, but protected him completely, and broke my tailbone for the third time. And let me tell you, it STILL HURTS! haha...oh well...the snow will pass eventually.
Well, It is DEFINITELY time for bed!
Goodnight folks,
-T-
Monday, January 19, 2009
Long Time No Talk!
I haven't had a journal since way back in high school. Now that I am 22 and feel that I have better things to talk about than I did back then. Let's see where should I start?! Well, how bout I start with my new life after a big move!
I have taken off a few years from school after deciding the field I was going into I had no life and would never have a life! I was dating a guy for almost 2 years and had moved from San Angelo, TX to Corpus Christi, TX. Let's just say the town wasn't for me and shortly after moving back to SA, I realized the guy wasn't for me either!
About 2 months after being back in SA, I still had this Ex who wasn't really an Ex if you know what I mean? Well, I get a phone call from my sister asking me a VERY important question. See she had just moved to Cape Cod, Massachusetts and couldn't find a day car for my 2-year-old nephew. She offered me an apartment off her house, to pay for the entire move, my food, hotels, and the flight of my passenger back to Texas. Then would pay me to watch my nephew Mon-Fri!
Seriously....who would say no right?!?! Well, Amber and I packed up all my things and I headed out the end of September. It was a roller coaster getting here but the best roller coaster of my life!! Things here were hard and difficult at first. It's a very different place from Texas. I'm used to the country life and all our Texas Country now being called Red Dirt Country.
I also now have a second job as a server at Uno Chicago Grill! I've been there for over 3 months...I still haven't made friends that I associate with outside of work except for one person, but I am hoping for that to change soon.
I'll never forget the first day I saw his BEAUTIFUL smile as he was looking right at me! Keep in mind I am still suffering from the heart that had been broken in a million pieces! But, no matter what I said this beautiful smiling face made all the right moves at all the right times and totally put my heart back together. He makes me the happiest person on earth. Not to mention he has an accent to die for because he is from Brazil. Beautiful country that I hope to visit someday!
Two days ago was my 22nd birthday! &*& I KNOW I KNOW I am not old...but for some reason I do feel a bit old. It was the best birthday yet! Douglas, oh yeah that's my love's name, went to Boston and had a grand ol' time just walking around with each other. Then the next day was my party!!! Just when I thought he couldn't surprise me anymore...he tells me he's going to store to get some toothpaste and comes back with a knock on the front door! I open it and here he is with this ice cream cake and a BIG 22 candle lit singing happy birthday!
I couldn't be happier with my life...granted I do miss my family and friends back home in Texas. But, I do think it is going to be a while before I visit home again! Well, this turned out to be extremely long I will update again hopefully tomorrow if I get a chance!
Thanks for listening!
-T-
I have taken off a few years from school after deciding the field I was going into I had no life and would never have a life! I was dating a guy for almost 2 years and had moved from San Angelo, TX to Corpus Christi, TX. Let's just say the town wasn't for me and shortly after moving back to SA, I realized the guy wasn't for me either!
About 2 months after being back in SA, I still had this Ex who wasn't really an Ex if you know what I mean? Well, I get a phone call from my sister asking me a VERY important question. See she had just moved to Cape Cod, Massachusetts and couldn't find a day car for my 2-year-old nephew. She offered me an apartment off her house, to pay for the entire move, my food, hotels, and the flight of my passenger back to Texas. Then would pay me to watch my nephew Mon-Fri!
Seriously....who would say no right?!?! Well, Amber and I packed up all my things and I headed out the end of September. It was a roller coaster getting here but the best roller coaster of my life!! Things here were hard and difficult at first. It's a very different place from Texas. I'm used to the country life and all our Texas Country now being called Red Dirt Country.
I also now have a second job as a server at Uno Chicago Grill! I've been there for over 3 months...I still haven't made friends that I associate with outside of work except for one person, but I am hoping for that to change soon.
I'll never forget the first day I saw his BEAUTIFUL smile as he was looking right at me! Keep in mind I am still suffering from the heart that had been broken in a million pieces! But, no matter what I said this beautiful smiling face made all the right moves at all the right times and totally put my heart back together. He makes me the happiest person on earth. Not to mention he has an accent to die for because he is from Brazil. Beautiful country that I hope to visit someday!
Two days ago was my 22nd birthday! &*& I KNOW I KNOW I am not old...but for some reason I do feel a bit old. It was the best birthday yet! Douglas, oh yeah that's my love's name, went to Boston and had a grand ol' time just walking around with each other. Then the next day was my party!!! Just when I thought he couldn't surprise me anymore...he tells me he's going to store to get some toothpaste and comes back with a knock on the front door! I open it and here he is with this ice cream cake and a BIG 22 candle lit singing happy birthday!
I couldn't be happier with my life...granted I do miss my family and friends back home in Texas. But, I do think it is going to be a while before I visit home again! Well, this turned out to be extremely long I will update again hopefully tomorrow if I get a chance!
Thanks for listening!
-T-
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